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Wednesday, November 23, 2005
today is a rainy day...yup...but we still went out as planned...though i was so tired because of yesterday's movies with m&m...i still go...but to my disappointment...they had already went for their shopping yesterday without telling us...erm...i only heard something kind of...:" we last minute then decide" whatever it is...you all still went right?so did you guys, well i mean some of you not to name you guys, respect the few of us?we are friends for like how many years already...and cant you guys be true to us?i hope you can sense my disappointment...and the most unhappy incident was at the neoprint shop...i asked you guys to take neoprints together...and all of you were reluctant...giving all kinds of excuses like :" i dont look good in contacts" so let me asked you...if you felt that you dont look good in contact lenes...why do you want to wear it intially?finally...you all agreed to take together...(you know how hard was it for me to please all of you in taking>?as if i was begging lke tat)yup...and all of you were not happy...and i dont know why...after the first neoprint shot which the 9 of us took together...some suggested that they take with their own 'groups' ARENT WE A GROUP?or we are not in the first place?oh my gosh...i was really stunned by what you guys said...and those who said that they dont look good in contact lenses took more neoprints then me..is it funny huh?whatever you all might think....i just want you guys to know that i am hurt by what you all did...and one more thing...i am not angry with anyone...is just that i am utterly dosappointed...yup...its hurting...i thought today will be a happy outing...but...it turns out like tat for me...worse still some innocent girl still dont know about what happened exactly...and i am not gonna say out...rest assured...
sometimes i wondered and thought...what are friends for?and who are exactly my true friends...till now i can say that i still haven found out the answer yet...i know people do change...but is this too fast for me to accept?i realised that after liu yang have left...everyone changed...liu yang can you come back to us to change the changed and to remain the unchanged to make sure that they will not change for the worse?
life is full of ups and downs...thats why we need friends...but what friends really are?i do not know...
Rachael
