just to warn you...this will be a lengthy post i guess...

hmm...do you know what i love to do most if i am sad or whatever?in short when i am feeling not so good?usually when this happens...i'll turn on my computer and start to blog...to vent all my frustrations...i hope to feel better after that but i seldom do...so whats the purpose of me blogging?i dont know...dont wish to know either...treat it as i am just practising my typing skills?

as usual...school is super stress because of.........you should know...in fact...i have to do most of the things myself...i cant blame them...i just have too high expectations of myself sometimes...but seriously...i really cant take it on my own...how am i going to have the brains and knowledge and strength of 5people? or at least 4?just blame it on my luck that i have to endure all these....but noone can help me?who can?looking at the rest just makes me want to cry...but its not going to be useful...nor neither its gonna help me change all these facts...but sometimes i just wonder...why is it me?why its not someone else?its my final year and the heaven is playing such a trick on me...i dont need all these unnecessary obstacles to prove myself...i really have no time for it now...

working with them just makes me feel so lonely...so left out...because i cant fit into their convesation...be it the topics they are speaking or just the most basic things...language...i dont blame them...i dont think that they are bad or whatever in any ways because i guess if I were them i'll behave the same...its natural i guess...but the question comes again...why is it have to be me?

hmm...woke up everyday since school started with a headache every morning...stress fills me entirely when i am in school...it just wont leave me even for a second...especially during today's practical...i almost going to give up...until you told me not to...everyday i went home hoping to be happy but it seems that you are just giving me bad news...i just cant help but feels so disappointed and sad about everything...

its so hard to even plan a dinner with you...its so hard to even wanting to go out with you...its all my fault i dont blame you...you had your reasons..and being the unreasonable me...all i know is asking you to take MC...

i really dont know what to do...i am just so stressed up and tired and disappointed:(please dont bother to console me or whatever...no one does anyway...but i really dont need that now...because noone is in my shoes...noone will understands how i feel...

Rachael

PBL is starting...which means that stress is coming too haha...

tomorrow theres bbank lab and worse still its at 9am and mmic lecture is at 4pm so from 12 to 4 technically speaking i have nothing much to do but fortunately i need to discuss PBL statement with my group haha...if not i think i will go home first...it really depends on what time the lab will end and whether there will be bbank and haem lecture on tuesday...

school haven really started and i can feel that i am so busy haha...is that good or bad?but i'll rather sit there and bored to death than to slog so hard for my school work...but no choice...

i am considering overseas studie...but i really cant let go of singapore haha...although it'll be only 2 years or slightly less...whats more if boy is going to stay and i am leaving...that'll be worse...haha

anyway bbq with the lab staffs at labrador park was fun but that place is a bit too far and too ulu...we missed the last bus back to harbourfront so had to walk about 20minutes to the main road and took a bus back to harbourfront...and by the time i reach punggol station which i took the last train...theres no more buses...luckily boy was so sweet to wait there for me and fetch me home...thanks haha...i am so touched...

too bad i cant upload the pictures because my laptop is at jurong haha service center...and it will take a week or more because they couldnt diagnose whats the problem...

gotta go practise my piano...my fingers' a bit rusty...

Rachael

i just know that brown is injured and you didnt care...

Rachael

finally i can get a little bit of rest today after completing my nice nice poster for MP...haha hmm actually its not really completed because we haven got a reply if the poster is ok haha...anyway i have been so tired this few days...to the point that i actually gonna doze off when i was driving to school thus i have to blast the music and sing along the way if not i am really gonna fall asleep...

hmm went for a haircut yesterday...

finally we have made our orders from the bbq wholesale for this saturday bbq...really looking forward to it...haha...but that place is soo far...haha...have to take train and bus...not gonna drive because i dont have a GPS!!! sucks in direction...anyone wanna sponsor me a GPS?haha...with a GPS i can go anywhere i like haha...

didnt see my boy yesterday...wonder if he had put on any weight?haha so lame...

gonna enjoy my last few days of break to the fullest:) monday will be the start of PBL!!!that totally sucks ok?

cant post any pictures because my laptop is down!!!gonna bring it for repair on saturday...

Rachael

Finally I submitted my MP report…now its time to do my poster…fortunately theres 3 of us working on the same poster…and thus my workload is divided into 3…yeah…went to school today…and I saw him wherever I went…wanted to say hi to him…but I really do not have the courage…because I am so afraid that I wont get any reply…and hes always with such a huge group of people…it really makes me so awkward…I don’t know why…I really hope we can talk like how my friend talks to you…haha…but I don’t know how to…

Anyway…went Singapore flyer with boy yesterday…it was a nice experience to be on top of Singapore for the whole half and hour especially with boy…it was fun because the capsule only had us and another couple and thus its really worth it…haha…hopefully he enjoyed too…

Before that went to eat spaghetti at some spaghetti place I don’t know how to spell…but that place is at marina square…haha I ate what I have eaten the last time I went there…haha and this time round I finished the whole plate…as I didn’t have lunch that day…because of the MP!!!

Hope to plan a birthday party for him…but he sounded not very interested?what am I going to do?haha…I don’t know…

Anyway gonna meet in school at 10 tomorrow to complete my poster…and I hope there wont be any traffic jam!!!i hate it…haha…

wont be seeing boy tomorrow...gonna miss him haha

Rachael

its 1am now and i am still not in bed...haha you must have thought that i am so hardworking doing and rushing for my MP but i stayed up so late because i am blog surfing haha...i kept telling myself to stop and continue doing my project...but since we haven discuss our results how can i do my discussion right?haha...anyway the deadline is on monday...5pm and wario was telling me its less than 72hours haha...time really flies huh?

anyway...wasnt feeling too good today...i will feel like that once in a month...should be obvious right?haha but nevertheless, i still send my mother to my grandma house haha...oh...hmm actually i only send halfway...boy continued with the driving for the rest of the journey because i wasnt feeling too well huh?haha...

was thinking of bringing hush for full grooming but that place was fully booked so have to wait till tomorrow...oh gosh...its sunday...monday is coming...sigh...

boy abandon me and went movie with his friends...but i felt so happy because i send him home:)haha i am so proud of myself...gf send bf home:)sweet huh?haha...just kidding...

Rachael

hmm...my dreams and hopes are getting further and further away from me with each passing day...

went back to school...just remind me of the sweet memories we had together...the trip to the school book shop to buy panadols when you were sick...but in the end i ended up buying so many cartoon characters colour pens...

the sight of you whenever i had lunch in different places....although you were always with your friends...but its so nice to be looking at you at a distance without your knowledge...

the meeting at level 1 after school if we ended same time...

and so many more...

can my dreams come true?

i hope i'll be in the same school as you again...
















haha fat hope!

Rachael

i think this is so unfair...i can give up anything for him...can he?

Rachael

today is the 2nd day of my 2weeks break and i am supposed to be doing my sip report now...but i am not...haha and tomorrow's the deadline to submit the report...and most of my friends have already completed them...but i am hardly halfway through...because i have so many distractions...one major distraction is the bed...haha...and plus the weather is so good for sleeping today...well...i shall blog for awhile and then continue with my report...

yeah mommy is back from her trip and which means i do not need to do housework again!!!its so tiring and totally SIANZ ok?especially my little dog...who always make a mess in my kitchen...and he gets extremely naughty whenever my mother is not around...anyway...mommy bought some make up stuffs for me...blusher, eye shadow blah blah blah because i have thrown away mine which i have been using for about 5 months?i heard that we are not supposed to use the same make up set for more than 6months?something about the bacteria will start to grow inside...whatever...anyway haha...tomorrow gonna go back to school just to submit report...yup..no joke...because of a stupid report i have to travel all the way to school...lucky its only 15minutes for me now...haha...and plus we will be staying in school to discuss our major project tomorrow...

hmm...just a random thought...haha i think that sometimes time really passes so slowly for me...haha...most of my friends are in university now..and i am still stuck in poly doing my finaly year...how unfair this is...and its so hard to get into university from poly...haha...not fair not fair...but its ok...poly has been so fun so far...but after this break...there will be no more fun...because i am in different class as my friends again!!! so sad right?and we have different break time...which means i will be alone...haha because everyone has their own...but the good thing is...this will only last for 2 months and plus most of the subjects is PBL which means no tutorial, no lectures i think...haha...after that i am gonna graduate and rot...

i am missing my woody head now...haha.his occupation now: slave haha...
work hard boy...

Rachael

finally sip is over!!!and today is the first day of my 2weeks break...haha but i have so many reports and projects to do...haha...anyway i just had my dinner which boy cooked for me...haha its pasta...my favourite...but my boy boy is so woody head that he dont know how to estimate the portion of 2people in the end i couldnt finish it...haha...and his house is like a village full of so many mosquitoes and now my both legs are full of mosquitose bites...poor me...

sigh...have to go back to school on wednesday to discuss our report...but yeah...the price of petrol dropped again...which means good news for me...haha can travel more with car:)i am so happy that boy said my driving skills has improved...

oh for your information....compasspoint's pizza hut is down for renovation:( i am so sad you know?i brought the coupons and my student pass happily went to compass with boy but guessed what?its closed!!!in the end we ate subway...it was nice also...but i am really craving for pizza hut although i have just eaten it on friday....

gotta so fetch my mommy soon...this few days shes not at home and my house is really in a big mess!!!oh my god!!!haha...

Rachael

i am home:)yeah finally after a long day of working in some boring place...yeah but this is the last week...shall be more positive about it:)hmm gonna chiong project after my dinner:(so sad...anyway i went home with a very ahem ahem guy...keep asking me this and that...i want to sleep on the train also cannot!!!haha...

waiting for my boy to online...whats taking him so long?

i miss my best buddy from primary school:)

Rachael

finally the theory exam is over:)haha...i almost couldnt finish the paper because frankly speaking, i haven tried completing a full paper within 3hours...haha...so yesterday was the first and only time i did the paper for full 3 hours at one go...so i didnt really estimate the time for each questions and almost couldnt finish the paper...but i did anyway haha...

anyway boy was so poor thing...he was waiting for me for 3 hours haha...and the parking fees was super expensive because the venue was some ulu ulu hotel...haha...1.60per hour...haha...and we parked there for like 4 hours plus?after exam...went to watch coffin..haha..it was quite disappointing actually...but never mind...and my boy bought a swatch for himself haha...congrats...dont lose your watch again ok?

i am lazy to do my reflections how?

yeah...one more week to end of sip:)

Rachael