haha...sometimes i really hate myself for being so silly...

well i have just gotten back another 2 of my results...hmm i passed my mgen...so i am kinda happy...but i've got no one to share my joy with haha...and my fpath...hmm dont wish to say...because i am kinda disappointed with it...

oh my god...i am gonna bored to death...i have tried to practise my piano just now...but i gave up practising because my fingers seem to be very naughty tonight so in the end...i ended up stoning in front of the tv because that wasnt my favourite programme...

haha i need T L C!!!

oh well...i am just crapping...

but seriously...i am missing you badly...

sighs...

i complained too much...

T L C...I need it...haha

please dont envy me...

argh!!!i am feeling so down now...

hate this feeling thats so sickening!!!

went online to talk to 2 friends but i didnt succeed...because all along i was the one asking them questions and they just answered...haha...thats so sad ok?haha...and they went offline...so i came here to blog...oh my god...jc friends...please share with me some of your workload...because i am damn BORED!!!haha..

Rachael

You Are 30% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

hmm..i am still waiting for my term test results!!!its so sickening ok?i have been waiting for days and i only got back one...and the mark was so annoying...most of my friends have gotten back all their results...why is mine taking such a long time???argh!!!

actually i've got nothing much to blog about...hmm just realised actually i have lots of stuffs to do?psychology project...htech interview...aimm assignment...what else?oh and the super hard ftt test which is coming up...my mother said that i would fail if i am not gonna study and she dont want me to fail my ftt...haha...oh yup..finally i managed to log into the cdc website...because ernest told me i used the wrong id... >_<"...and he was laughing because i just realised i have been using the wrong id all along...no wonder i could access to the page...oh my god...i am so blur nowadays...never mind...you said that you would guide me right?haha...

anyway...star gazing at punggol end was nice especially with you...but the irritating mosquitoes spoil everything...haha...as usual i got bitten again...maybe my blood is really too sweet...mac delivery was also nice...haha...everything is nice with you...i hope that you will think likewise huh?haha...

debbie told alvin that i am a reporter...haha...i am not ok?

haha i am so stressed up now...i really treid my best to teach..but why is it nothing ever gets in?i am so sad and disappointed...am i not that efficient?or is there any other reason...hmm who can tell me?

i am super hardworking now ok?i practised my piano for the whole one hour during 8pm...haha feel so contented now...but my skills still sucks...because my fingers are turing rigid...haha turning rusty also...

thats it...

mgen lab quiz tomorrow...i am not going to study as usual...hmm found out that i didnt study for all the lab quizzes...weird huh?

Rachael

HOME ALONE!!!this time round i am gonna spend the whole night all by myself...oh my god...ok its kinda scary as when you are alone you tend to imagine things...anyway...i did nothing much today...well..i have been slacking since i reached home...hmm...what did i do?i was trying hard to sleep...but i couldnt...maybe i wasnt used to staying alone...but seriously...its lonely to be at home all by myself...i am silly...yes i am...i am old enough to stay all by myself...oh gosh...why am i so weak sometimes?i do not want to appear like that...but on the other hand...i dont want to put on a brave front...i do not want to let people know that i am weak...yet i do not want them to know that i am strong too...because i do not want them to assume that i am such a strong person...hmm actually i do not know what am i talking about...i am fill with madness today...oh i mean now...

i should be studying for my htech lab quiz tomorrow...but i couldn study...i dont know why...haha how i wish i could know the reason why...anyway...maybe if i am brave enough, daring enough...i would like to watch a horrow show before i sleep tonight...but firstly...how am i gonna get to the living room?i am so afraid of the dark...

now i learn to appreciate everything...oh my god...my room is so quiet...

wish you were here with me:)

Rachael

sometimes i really feel that adults do not understand how we really feel...hmm...i know i am 18...well maybe those we are 18 will be classified under as ADULTS...ok i dreaded this word...but one thing thats for sure...the older adults do not understand us...i am not throwing any tantrum like those 14 or 15 years old teenagers who complained about everything under the sky...but seriously...i really hate this...

i just wanted to spend the last day of my holiday outside..is that too demanding?ok i know i did not practise my piano...but i was too tired...tell you something...i can sleep at anywhere and at anytime nowadays...haha...

another thing...i am BROKE...

Rachael

this picture shows everything

look at his face...lol

our back views...

friends 4eva

black and white...

hmm went out with mu nai and martin on thursday...and there was so much fun...haha...they intended to study for their coming examinations but in the end we went to watch hot fuzz...and the movie ticket only costed 2.50 because mu nai had 2 free tickets so we splited the 8 dollars...haha...so nice of her to share the tickets with us...anyway crapped a lot that day and we took a lot of photos which they kept running after me for the photos...i am sorry i have been so busy this few days...haha...oh ok i am always busy due to unforeseen circumstances...i will try to send you guys the photos as soon as possible ok?i have already uploaded them onto my computer...really enjoyed myself that day because they are so fun to hang out with...hmm after that went to punggol to meet my beloved...haha...oh ok and we went to yishun dam...there were a lot of loners there...standing there smoking and doing nothing...haha...i was hoping to spot alvin there so that i could tell debbie about it...but too bad he wasnt there on that day...oh yup before i forget...just want to say...hot fuzz is a nice movie...i made my 2.50 worthwhile by watching that...haha but it was nice nice ok?


yesterday was friday...and i went for a haircut before i met little boy at eunos station...well i haven been to eunos for a long time and it really changed a lot...but anyway...we decided to go to vivocity...but while we were on our way...he asked...why not we go to suntec because he saw suntec i guessed?and so off we go to suntec...walked around and went to search for suitable movie to watch...but there wasnt any in eng wah so we walked to marina square...and we bought the 9.30pm show for death proof...and that ticket seller said the show would end at 11.25 so that we could catch the last train home...but it didnt end so early...haha...anyway that show was kinda lame...oh yup...ate dinner at carls junior and we chatted from 7plus till 9?there was so much things to talk about between us i guessed...and by the way the santa fe burger was so hard to handle...i left a huge debris of lettuce and tissue paper when we left...haha...the cheese were all flowing out...haha...but i think it was nice...as nice as my charboiled bbq burger which i always eat...and we did something very smart...we smuggled the carls junior drink into the theatre...haha...wonder how we managed to do that?i put that drink in my bag and we walked in...haha...so smart of me to think of that right?ok and so the show ended at around 11.35?and we were so afraid that my mother would be unhappy so we walked very fast...but in the end...we walked the wrong way >_<" haha...but due to my smartness...we found the correct way easily...haha...but the stupid suntec was closed...and we couldnt enter the carpark by the lifts...and so we walked into the carpark from outside...and it was so dangerous...fortunately...there wasnt any cars...and another thing...we got lost in that huge carpark...and so we spent the next 15 to 20 minutes trying to search for his vehicle by breathing in stagnent air and the scent of rubbish chute...haha..but it was a nice experience...because i just found out yesterday that the carpark in suntec was super huge...haha...so much things happened yesterday...and the last thing that happened was...there was a lizard at the windscreen...and guessed what my smart boy did?when the vechicle was moving on the highway...he used the wiper to sweep the poor lizard...the poor lizard couldnt resist the force od the wiper although it held tightly to the windscreen...haha...i thought it was so disgusting...but he said he has gotten my permission before doing that...haha...and thats all for yesterday...i reached home at 12.30 haha...and woke up at 7 for cca...hmm cca was fun but kinda bored because most of the mentees didnt turn up...yup thats about it...long entry huh?


i super miss you...haha...what kinda english is that?


Rachael

hey i am back again...hmm haven been blogging daily lately because i have been kinda busy with my own stuffs...anyway went night safari yesterday...hmm it was fun...yup just you and i...we made our tickets worth the price of 28dollars but exploring the whole place and left just 30 minutes before closure...haha...and someone's cash card no money....then we couldn exit..but thanks to the cab driver who lended us his cash card and i paid him exact...haha...anyway yup thats about yesterday...

hmm how i wish i can grow up faster so that there wouldnt be any restrictions in any stuffs we do...theres always rules and regulations to follow...yup...i really feel kinda irritated and frustrated sometimes...i guess you feel likewise...but as you said...we have no choice...yes...i do not have a choice just for one and only reason...that is because i love you too much...yup...my love for you is so strong that it can overcome these problems...the dreams you had was so touching that it almost made me cried...it made me realised how much you love me...and i am sorry for having fears...i certainly do have faith in you and i trust you simply because your heart is beating in mine and mine in yours...it may not make sense to others but it makes sense to you and me...yup...i couldn bear to let you go everytime you need to go home...i wanted to cry but by doing that it wouldn make you stay because you have to go home eventually...i cant be so selfish to occupy you...i wanted to cry because of so many reasons but i held back my tears because you told me not to cry...you said that if i cry you would hurt more than me and that if i ever did that, i could only do it in front of you...and yes i did it once and you were so heartbroken...i am sorry for that...i promise you i will be strong...but once again...like many people said...promises are meant to be broken...so i dont promise you...i assured you ok?

well..next topic...hmm i am really trying hard to make our friendship back to where we used to be...i sincerely want to be friends with you...i took the initiative to message you...maybe i was wrong in the past to neglect you...but i am really trying my best now...i guess you know who you are right?

sometimes i find that humans are so weird...for one minute...they can be so good with each other...getting along well...talking well...and can even be lovers...but at the next moment...they became strangers...not even saying hi to one another...this is so scary...that is happening to me now...haha...does this thing happen to you guys as well?

lastly...i love you as much as you love me :)

Rachael

WOULD YOU BE THERE

If I were blue
Would you be there for me
And whisper in my ear that's okay
Would you stand by me
Let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good
Would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me,
Would you run with me,
And never look back.

Would you be there to love,
to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away
Would you be there to love,
To be with me.

Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If I were away,
Would you still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way

Would you be there to love,
To be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away

Would you be there for me?

she's got that innocent look on her eyes...haha

hello...hmm i haven been blogging for days...miss me?anyway i am damn pissed off with my computer...sometimes i just feel like throwing it on the ground...it sucks...hmm i have been quite busy this few days so i didnt really have the time to blog because i was so tired...everything is fine...but my mood has been going up and down...its holiday now but i just felt so stressed out...i have so much things left undone...my psychology project which our group members didnt even meet up yet, my grade 6 theory which has been lagging behind ever since my teacher went for maternity leave, my grade 8 exam pieces which i almost forgotten how to play it, my FTT which i didnt even bother to read it and my practical lessons which i have been trying hard to go into the website but my stupid computer forbids me to do so...sigh..i have so much things to do and i couldn even sleep in peace at night thats the reason why i woke up so early every morning...everything is so sickening!!!haha...how i wish i can let go everything and enjoy myself to the fullest...that will be so great...oh my god i am so stressed up now...haha..my mother has been pushing me to practise my piano because i haven been doing so for ages...but i just dont have the urge to do so now...i know its my passion...but can i just slack for awhile?please?

anyway yesterday outing was >_<" because we didnt do anything except just walking from one shopping mall to the other...but it was fun at least i met my friends whom i haven been seeing for ages...yup...they have their own problems so i didnt talk much about my stuffs...haha or else they will be more STRESS...especially nana with that STRESSED UP look on her face...haha...relax girl...study hard and i think you will do well because you guys are a bunch of smart people...thats why you guys went to jc right?jia you!!!

hmm sometimes i really feel so fortunate that i went to a poly instead of jc...its not only because of studies...in poly i learned lots of things which are so precious to me...i get to experienced things that i didnt expect to experience...haha ok i am not trying to promote my school...i am just saying what i really feel...

and lastly...i get to know you...haha if you were in nyjc i guess i probably wont get to know you?but who knows?i was in nyjc for the 1st 3 months too...maybe if you were there...you'll be my OGL?haha...then i will also get to know you...but looking at your personality...for your soft spoken character...i dont think you would want to be OGL right?haha...just like you asked me before once..."you like to be an OL ar?" haha...

i dont know why...i am always the noisy one...haha...

Rachael

guess what are we looking at?

haha its our beloved ice cream!!!

we love ice cream

yes simply love it haha


firstly i want to congrats all tp students...haha...our term test is finally over...

secondly...i want to say that i am utterly disappointed...i didnt expect things to be like that...yup...anyway...if its going to be like this...i'll go along with the way that everybody wants...that will be better i guess?

thirdly...we ARE DRIFTING apart definately...for sure...sometimes becoming strangers when we met...with no common topics to discuss on...again i didnt expect things to turn out that way...

next...i love ICE CREAMS...yes and DEBBIE loves it too...haha...i admit its fattening...but we dont control what we eat...because eating will make us HAPPY...YES HAPPY...we prefer to eat than to starve ourself to become thinner...haha...she says shes fat but she simply loves to eat...and shes happy...haha...and shes damn pro...went to malaysia straight after the last paper...cool...haha

lastly...i love you so much...and you are CUTE haha...thats a compliment ok?

Rachael

finally...i picked up my courage to play with the dogs...hmm i am so proud of myself now...i am brave and daring...haha...next time should try your rocky...just kidding...

anyway...AIMM...what should i say?actually it sucks as well...because i didnt have enough time to finish the paper...i was shocked when i saw the paper because i couldnt answer most of them but i managed to understand the questions after reading it for a few times and that wasted my time..and i was slacking at the beginning haha and guessed what?in the end i had to scribble the paper and do it quickly...hmm so i didnt have the time to check...good luck to me...and 3marks gone...haha

yawn...i am so exhausted now...gotta end here...because i really need a rest...haha...i am suffering from chest pain...oh my god i swear its damn painful just now...heart attack haha...

Rachael

oh my god...i am in a good mood today so i came to blog once again...oh did i mention about my lunch just now?haha...we went swensens for lunch and i didnt eat the main course from the main menu...because i was smart...i knew they wont change the menu until hundred years later so i ate those items which were on promotion for a short period of time...haha that was so smart of me...but someone ate half bbq chicken which was there ages ago...and you were so cute...you asked me why the chicken was not boneless>_<" great sense of humour...haha...

i know study is more important so i rather not see you...
the feeling of missing someone you love is very terrible...
its human nature to fall in love...
i dont know why...

5th june :)

Rachael

i want to complain!!!MGEN sucks like hell...stupid MGEN...i couldnt do the paper...and i left a few marks blank...oh my god...what if i fail the paper?and to make things worse my dearest Yi ping says its managable!!!haha and she wrote it on her msn nick...oh my god...am i that lousy?haha...anyway i am so happy today because today is 5th of june...wonder why?dont tell you let you anticipate...those who want to know come and ask my personally...and another thing...i have found a new hobby...haha that is to spam people on their tagboard...shude and yi ping should know me best :)

AIMM is next...i am gonna kill this subject!!!i promise...i'll take back what i have lost...haha...

Rachael

i am BORED!!!its so irritating i cant remember what i have studied!!!

Rachael

i dont know why...but i just love you very much...yup...its hard to express myself in words and in whatever to you...but i just want you to know that...to me, you are the best...thanks for doing so much to me:)

you made me realised what is love when i couldnt feel it anymore...
you taught me how to love...
you wiped away all my tears
you chased away all my loneliness
you pulled my up from the debris
you sew my heart back into one piece again :)
thanks

Rachael