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Saturday, September 30, 2006

finally today is my last mentoring session...yeah!!!after mentoring...sy and me went to tm to search for bee's present...oh gosh...it was really hard to find...because we really dont know what she likes except sailormoon...but then sailormoon kinda dont exist in the streets in the year 2006 anymore...haha...so in the end...we bought her a lip gloss and a fila bottle...hmm no link at all...but never mind...

no running today because of the haze and the rain...sad...

hmm...anyone believes in eternal love?haha...i just dont believe...

just realised that if i put haha in every sentence...it will sound kinda stupid huh?

Rachael

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Friday, September 29, 2006

hmm...i am feeling down...you know why?because mrs sum hasnt been replying to my email!!!sob sob...we kinda lost touch with each other since last year i guessed...haha...although she accused me for stealing some kinda stupid candies during p6...i still regard her as my teacher...hmm...so kinda missed her too...haha...thinking back on those days...i think i was silly...silly for crying over something that i had not done...ok guess what...in the end...the candy was found in her own bag...can you imagine a teacher stole a packet of candy?haha...thats hilarious...i dont know who is the culprit who wanted to make us and her the scapegoat...hmmm till now i still dont know...haha...i guess everything will remain unknown because no one owns up...maybe that person was doing me and meng a favour by putting that packet of candy into her bag so as to shut her mouth...haha...ok...i was just very shocked that she searched our bags in front of the whole class...haha...but too bad...nothing was found in our bag...and when i complained to the principal...haha...guess what she said?shes an excellent actress or i can say a liar...haha...she said that she was ADMIRING our bag...oh gosh...my bag was the most normal ones in the class...nothing to admire...its not as if my bag was an LV or a gucci one...haha...yup anyway it was embarrassing for us...nevertheless...i forgave her...because she was my teacher afterall..and after that incident i dont know why...she kept prasing my handwriting which was indecipherable by the human eye then...but whatever...haha..its been 5years since the incident happened...dont know why...i thought of this suddenly so i deicided to blog it down and partly because she haven been replying my sms...oh i am so sad...see...i am such a nice nice person...i forgive but i dont forget... *winks*

okok...some people who dislikes me or likes to argue with me may think that since i wanted to forgive her...i shouldnt be saying all this out right?haha...true enough to say that...but i meant no harm...i just want to say me and meng are innocent!!!haha...thats a fact...because i wont resort to stealing...especially just a packet of candy which cost 50cents and i helped the victim to buy it at my void deck...haha

i am too bored...so i just blog whatever comes to my mind...haha...i am gonna to be overweight soon because i keep staying at home...sitting in front of my computer...its either eat...sleep tv or computer for me...haha...thats my FRUITFUL holiday!!!yeah...i am trying to console myself...haha...

Rachael

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

oh i felt so envious about josh and vic's timetable...it is like very short...oh my gosh...please god from all over the world...please bless that my timetable will not be as long as semester one...ok?i hope that my timetable will be as short as them...please please please...haha...ok i am lame...but thats the only hope i have...

life has been boring for me today...haha...i watched BOOGEYMAN till i fell asleep today...this shows that the show wasnt that nice afterall...it was senseless...and i dont know what is it talking about thats why i fell asleep...

ok...i dont look forward to school reopen...haha...

well anyway...gotta end here...having a headache now...

oh yup...my blog music v nice...haha...

Rachael

writtern @10:31 PM

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

i am so tired...sighs...haha...

someone is sleeping so early this few days or should i say weeks?i dont know whays up...haha...

i dont feel like blogging today...anyway just want to wish my mother and bee happy birthday...haha...

i dont like petty people...

Rachael

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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

i feel so sad for her...my dear friend...why is this happening?i dont want to see her so sad...hmm...

rachael could not be reached...shes suffering from the great depression...haha...i failed...

haunted apartment still ok...
be back by 12 midnight...or else...heh heh...

Rachael

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

hmm...banquet is quite a nice show to watch...first time i didnt really fall asleep...haha...phew...because most people in the theatre were those aunties and uncles...haha...

anyway...went bugis today...had sakae for lunch after mentoring session...today's mentoring session is the most interesting one i think?haha...because we watched CARS...but i dozed off...and i didnt dare to sleep as i am the mentor...i should show good example to them...haha...oh after that we played quite a few days...and thats all...haha...

hmm...i've have gotten my newbie card...quite nice...pink in colour...haha...anyway...i am broke...haha...

i am still the same...sighs...

Rachael

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Friday, September 22, 2006

arghz...i've got lots of things to blog about actually...but when i clicked to this page...i just stared blankly at it...not knowing what to do...i am scared...everything is horrendous...can you imagine...everyone knows what you are thinking about?you just bink your eyes...and people will know whats up in you mind...oh gosh...that sounds so scary...

yup...my previous entries sounded kinda sad...because i was really hurt...its as though an unknown object just stabbed me from my back...and took away my everything...yeah...do you think i really let go?i cant tolerate things anymore...i cant stand it...i am still not ok not fine...not recovered...do you think i really let go?everything in your mind is them...yup them...sometimes i wondered if i should really hate you to the core...yes to the core...just dropped everything and move on?yeah right...you can...yes you can with all the support from your dearest beloved dears...but i cant...i am going to tell you straight in your face...I CANT!!!you think its easy for me?oh go ahead and think...just go ahead...you think its so hard on you...and easy for me?huh?oh gosh whats this?i am a mammal by the way...you know that kinda warm blooded mammal who has feelings?oh yes...hope you know...so now everything its my fault...its so hard on you...i lead an easy life yeah?thats what you think...you just dont know...start everything again next semester???ok let you think what you want...i am so HAPPY while you are sad and have a hard life...and i am living an easy life...just because someone was in front of me...ok?

Rachael

writtern @10:58 PM

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Thursday, September 21, 2006

i am still the same...i just dont understand why...they are more important...

Rachael

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

haha...just came back from class chalet today...it was quite fun overall...but the night cycling part was kinda scary...imagine cycling from downtown to OCH from 8 plus in the night to 2 plus in the morning...haha...fortunately, i cant cycle well so have to rent a double bike...haha...phew...

ok i realised a lot of things from the chalet...i know more...well...shouldn say so much here afterall...my friends once told me blog isn safe...haha...i just dont understand why it happens...

i am totally confused now...sigh...

Rachael

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Monday, September 18, 2006

"what does your name mean?"

R- Fcukin Crazy
A- You like to curse alot
C- You're wild and crazy
H- You have a very good personality and looks
A- You like to curse alot
E- Damn good kisser
L- you live to have fun

A- You like to curse alot
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser.
F- People adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- you live to have fun.
M- one to have fun.
N- You are dead sexy
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fcukin Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- one of the best damn bf/gf ne one could ask for.
Z- Always ready.

Rachael

writtern @11:28 AM

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Sunday, September 17, 2006

i've enough of these words...:" i dont believe...i DONT BELIEVE...I DONT BELIEVE!!!i dont believe..." dont talk to me if you doubt me...it just hurts me more...i just need someone who trust me...not someone who doubt me...

i am being pushed to my limits...and i hate that...everything sucks to me now...and thats the reason why i indulge in piano whole day long...to forget all my troubles...i just feel so relaxed when i started to hit those keys...i dont care what the hell i am playing...the louder i go...the better i feel...i just hope one day i'll play till my whole hands dropped...

someone save me!!!i dont want to die...

Rachael

writtern @11:19 PM

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my heart just skated away...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or Saying nothing and wishing you had?

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you ?

What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Life is all about risks

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

i saw this and i think its true so i just want to share...

i got my answer to the question of the story...leaf's departure is not because of wind pursuit...its because tree didnt ask her to stay...i think most people heard of this story before...

Rachael

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

one word from me: disappointed...

Things that everyone should know:

1) never poke your nose into other's business especially into their relationships and end up huting others in the end( its bad for health ok?)
2) nothing is fair in this world
3)humans do make choices
4)we cant have everything of our choices
5)we face the reality
6)not everyone will give up something for the one he or she loves( but some people do i guess?)
7)rac believes in retribution( so if someone do something evil...better make it up soon...thats my belief)
8)it takes a really long time to heal a broken heart(it may never be heal)
9)action speaks louder than words( no matter how great your words are...your actions will always speak louder than them)
10)we live in a cruel world where we make choices...

Rachael

writtern @10:05 PM

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Friday, September 15, 2006

hmm went to sentosa with a bunch of people mostly from chemical engineering and 2 biotechnology girls and a few of my classmates...it was very fun...but i am very tanned now...i dont like it...haha...thats why i chose to stay in the shade many times...haha...anyway shouldn elaborate more...a picture paints a thousand words...i'll upload those pictures...

maybe i am a person whom people dont really entrust me with their problems and share their problems with me...i understand!!!well...i just dont like people to dupe me...just that...and likewise i dont do that to people...i know so well how is it like to be hurt in things...

i am just a typical girl...yeah...i do things that are done by normally people...and i am warm blooded...i have feelings...i can feel everything... ;)

Rachael

writtern @11:00 PM

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

hmm i am blogging for the 2nd time in one day..its basically because i feel like doing so....yup...i am having mixed feelings now...i know i should be contented with whatever i have gotten...but i just couldn be pleased...call me greedy or what...but i just dont feel like what i am supposed to felt now...i dont know why...it wasnt fantastic at all...or not even good i guess...haha...i think the most important now is to stay happy...

i dont want to go hongkong now...because if i go...i will not be able to make it to the chalet which i have promised...

Rachael

writtern @10:23 PM

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holidays are so boring for me!!!i cant stand the boredom anymore!!!haha...someone please help me haha...well anyway...i managed to find the hello kitty correction pen which i have been looking for...yeah yeah...3 cheers for me...haha..

oh really will be my reply i guess..haha...it doesnt matter what the answer is my dear friend...haha...i just know that we will remain as best friends...forever!!!

anyway holidays make me think a whole lot more...haha...

Rachael

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Monday, September 11, 2006

oh my god...haha...i am so pissed by msn..because i cant sign in for the past one hour!!!haha...

anyway...nothing much has happened this few days...i am just getting a bit bored...i guess this shows that i am normal...haha...i do the same thing everyday its a routine of sleep...tv...slacking and eating...haha...i think i will grow fat sooner or later...haha...hopefully not...but i am constantly weighing myself...haha

oh boy...if you like her just date her out...haha...thats so simple...anyways its your holiday and hers too...so why are you hesitating?are you shy?haha...never mind...i'll help you out if you want...but i think it will be nicer for you to ask on you own...

those were the days...haha...

Rachael

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Saturday, September 09, 2006

lh zinc and me

me and zinc

my little kitten

he cant close his mouth haha...

i went to the zoo with zinc and ling hui yesterday...overall it was fun...but we pay so much for the enterance fee and what we got is mosquitoe bites...haha...but we had fun laughing...at the crocodile who cant close his mouth...haha..

Rachael

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Friday, September 08, 2006

hmm i just got this from somewhere else..."FUCK OFF FUCK OFF!! bloody BITCH!! thats no wonder no one likes you much.. HAHA i hope he hurts you deeply.. seriously you dont deserve a SHIT! shut your pie hole.. or i shall fucking sew it up for U." sounds familiar?so people what do you think of this?and wait theres one more "arGHH i am pissed!! some FUCKERS decided they shld read my blog and comment abt some stuff.. FUCK off lar.. its my blog arsehole! stupid BITCH!!"...i have always thought that we live in a civilised world now...and i didnt expect such words to exist now...maybe not within my vocabulary...

life really sucks this few days...i am totally demoralised for everything...and at the lowest point in my life...no one came to me...well...maybe thats better...everytime i chatted with my godsisters...they always confide to me when they had problems..but i didnt have the courage to do so to them when i had mine...simply because i am older than them....i am supposed to slove their problems and thats why they came to me and not me going to them to pour out everything...

you are so hard hearted...and i guessed you have already fulfil the wish of someone who is hoping that you'll hurt me more...just want to say that you left me behind when i was all alone...

Rachael

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

basically i've got nothing much to blog about because life has been the same for me this few days...but however i will be going to the zoo tomorrow...yeah...haha...with lh and zinc...haha...hmmmyup...i am trying very hard...sighs...

those were the days...

i arent sure of anyone protecting me because theres no one to do so for me as least for now...i dont know anyone who is willing to do so for me...

maybe i am wrong...i dont want anything to affect our friendship and so i think its better for me to apologise to you to avoid any further misunderstanding...i just want to say i have never doubt you and our friendship before...but i knew someone who doubt me and this hurts me very much...and i guess you know who is he too...hmm...hes the someone who doubt me more and more everyday...and he himself dont know the reason why...i really hope that you will come back to my blog to read all these...because no one really understands...i just felt so painful...yup...but i guesss its rather pointless to say anything now because whats done has be done...yup...one more thing...i was never pretending to be your friend...and i didnt really understand what the 1st misunderstanding was all about...i was puzzled even till now...i dont know how did the 1st misunderstanding arise...hmm...but i guess its time to end all these misunderstandings...we have cleared the 1st one so i guessed theres no need for me to know what happened exactly...and i sincerely hope that this misunderstanding will be cleared too..

anyway...i dont like the word bitch and shit to be used...maybe its my problem that i dont like it...but i just want to say i wont use this word on anyone...because i knew its awful and i dont like to word to be use on me...dont you?

Rachael

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

i am bored!!!

my heart has been stabbed so deeply that i think my wound wont heal anymore...i have been hurt so badly...and i dont know why i felt so painful this time...i guess things have changed drastically which i dont want it to...i just know my heart is bleeding profusely right now...

Rachael

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

hmm...maybe 7 weeks of holidays can be quite boring afterall?but i guess its at least better than having to wake up early in the morning and go the school everyday...now i can enjoy my life for about 2 months...come to think of that its not bad actually huh?sighs...now i realised that organising a simple outing is such a difficult task for me to do...i think i wont ask again because i knew noone will be interested...i hate to hear the reply where people will ask:"who is going?you go ask other people 1st then i see who got go..." so if everyone is giving me the same reply or at least similar reply how am i suppose to organise?i guess i just have to wash my hands out of everything...i am not pissed or whatever...i just felt that my efforts are somtimes not being recognised...maybe i am just not like some people who can stand out in a crowd and voice out their suggestions...maybe i am not like that...i dont have much confidence and thats where i lose out i guess...and i am disappointed with myself too...yup...maybe i am not born a leader...oh enough of crap...

my chinese is getting worser...i dont know why...i tend to use lesser chinese vocabulary now...and i have forgotten mostly everything that i have learned...oh gosh...

sighs...i am just hoping...days can be better...

maybe the water in the river will really run dry one day without us realising...continents drift apart too but we just dont realised...because we find that they are too insignificant for us to be bothered...maybe...

those were the days...

to whom it may concern...hmm...i just want to say noone is forcing you or asking you to do anything...and yup...if you do not want to let people know about your plight...hmm..just dont blogged it...why must you mention it in your blog and said please dont said it out?isnt it attracting attention?oh gosh...i dont mean to intrude into you things...but i just felt so unhappy about the thing you wrote...yup... and one last thing...if you are feeling so terrible about it just cancel everything...haha...yup.. isnt that the best way out?

Rachael

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Monday, September 04, 2006

haha...went out with bee, lynn and qh to celebrate maggie birthday at her house...overall it was fun...if you guys want to know more about it...go to my links and click lynn...haha...after that we went to the newly opened library at bishan...ok it doesnt looked like a library to me or sounds like one i think because it was damn noisy with all those kids running around...students camp there to study oh wait to chat i think...those aunties jabbering loudly as if nobody's business..ok basically we just went there to photocopy somethings...thats all...i wouldnt want to stay there for long...haha...after that we went shopping and i saw meng...he was with a girl...haha...and he said he want to take photo with me so we went into the neoprint shop but took the picture with his phone...and bee and qh was like oh who was he...haha...

hmmm...actually i dont intend to express my feelings here but theres a force which compelled me to do so...i just think that you dont call a person a darling without his or her permission or at least when he or she is not you the other half...am i right?maybe i am wrong but i really dont know...haha...its weird huh?

i have been thinking quite a lot recently partly because my examinations are over...yup maybe...i just think that in my opinion...love is not about winning or losing and its not about pride...just before you plunged into it...you should have realised its not a game of fairness...and i dont think i will consider that as even a game...yup...

maybe noone knows about me that much after all...i just want to say i am a girl who dont usually take initiative...yup...maybe not for other girls...but i am particular about that i guess...or a least a little bit...haha...i am so retarded to type all these things...haha...just ignore me people...i guess i am lunatic...

Rachael

writtern @11:23 PM

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Sunday, September 03, 2006

hi...today is the 3rd day of the 7 weeks of holidays...its so fast huh?as i always said...time flies...its true...it seemed as though one minute before i was having lessons in the first level of MBS with mdm tay and running all around in the field after school and one minute after i was sitting right here in front of my computer at the age of 17...blogging about the ups and downs of my life...haha...its too scary to be true...

anyway i will be bored to death soon!!!actually theres lots of things for me to do..but i just dont feel like doing it...i was so keen and anticipate the end of examinations but now, when everything is finally over , i dont feel like doing anything haha..

i want to live my life to the fullest...heh heh...

dearest gods from all around the world...please help me...just one more time and i'll cherish everything...thanks...haha...i am lame...its all my wishful thinking...we dont live in a fairytale...we live in a world where everything happens for a reason...

Rachael

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Saturday, September 02, 2006

back from shopping...haha...bought a number of things...one of them is a watch...a casio watch...i love it so much...but its my own money...so now i am broke...haha...

2 months...time flies...today is the second day of the 2 months or to be exact only 7 weeks...soon i'll be bloggin something like this:" hmm today will be the last day of holiday...finally 2 months has passed and i'll be back to school tomorrow...again" i think its quite true...only time couldnt be recycled huh?

its weird..i guessed i am quite weak...just a stroll around punggol at night can make me down with flu...i think partly because punggol air is so fresh and so cooling until you can catch a cold huh?haha

please please please one more time will be enough...dear gods from everywhere...please help me this time...haha...i really wanna...

Rachael
aniticipating for the arrival of school reopening

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Friday, September 01, 2006

hmm...today's a rather boring day for me...but its good...i had the chance to be a filial granddaughter for once...haha...good for me...saw ling hui at compass...she was there with her friend...just remembered she asked me how to go to IMH yesterday and today i saw her...she said that the place at IMH has been taken so hmm no job for her...sob sob...and i asked her whether she want to work at expo promoting lingerie because i saw it on the newspaper this morning...but she said she was afraid to call to ask...hmm...imagine ling hui and i selling and promoting lingerie at expo hall...haha...oh my god thats so funny...i think both of us will laugh to death...a question suddenly popped up in my mind...i asked her:"hey did u grow any taller?" haha...of course she said no...hmm actually she looked shorter to me now comapared to when i last saw her...please dont be mad at me when you accidentally visit my blog because i know you will...haha...and its such a small world...ling hui's friend is also from sp choir and she knows victor too...the one with yellow spectacles...haha...thats what i told her...

i didnt realised my enteries were all so 'dead' and 'sad' until someone told me...haha...ok...i admit sometimes i am pessimistic...haha...but there are days where i am as happy as a lark...its true...i cant stop laughing sometimes when i am really happy...

i am a typical girl who is happy more than i am sad...and i am a typical girl who will go crazy when i saw my favourite idol!!!yeah...thats me...and i am a girl who once liked sailormoon...haha...but i still like it...because if i dont say that...the sailormoon fan will not be happy...right?bee?haha...

Rachael

writtern @4:29 PM

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hl, bee and me...

yes we love taking pics in the toilet!

me, ms chew and hl...

writtern @9:18 AM