i only know that i get more and more depressed each day...i couldnt sleep almost everyday...and my headache doesnt get any better...

what to do?

i am just that lousy...

Rachael

sigh...i am getting more and more demoralised as each day passes....whatever i have done is just redundant and wont receive any recognition...sometimes i am wondering...why am i doing this?sometimes i really hate those people...sigh...

having a bad headache now...recevied a msg just now from my friend...she has gotten her bachelor degree and will be going back to australia for her honours...look?she's a degree holder and what am i?just a lousy diploma holder doing a lowly and rubbish job...hmm really envy her...
even if i would to get my degree it will be donkey years later...

i am lethargic...i dont know if i could carry on...i dont wanna tell anyone about this...but i am really really very tired...

school is reopening...but i am so not looking forward...

Rachael

having a bad headache now....somehow...i am still very worried about the future....do you think we will last?

Rachael

this holiday isnt like holiday because i am practically back in school everyday doing some random shit stuffs...too bad right?i am just a small fry...so whatever that is unimportant and extra will be my job and i am supposed to do it...

anyway...i hope i will end early today...sigh...my shopping dream today is almost crashed...

hmmm i think i kinda made up my mind...but i am afraid to think of the future...its still quite dark i guess...and i couldnt see anything...at least till now...

genting here i come (ok i made it sounds so exciting...but actually i wanted to go somewhere further like taiwan?)

Rachael