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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
i was trying to type chinese words into this blog...and i tried to publish but it came out to be those weird icons...so i made a conclusion...this blog does not support the use of chinese words...haha...well...i have been slacking at home for the past few days...and i haven found a job yet...oh man...am i so useless?most of my friends are working now...even the quietest ssy...haha...she is working as well...i have a bad habit of being so indecisive...now i am stuck between to work or not to work...yup...and i dont know which is better for me...firstly...most of the jobs require long hours and i wont have the time for my piano...next if i never work...i would be stuck at home or outside hanging around in shopping malls...wasting money...yup...how i wish i could split myself into two so that i do not have to choose anything...haha...
actually...i haven been planning all my stuffs...i am just not motivated and do not have the urge to do so...everything has been so slow and peaceful to me now...and those words like...fast and rush seem to have disappear from my dictionary...i take things at a slow pace now and somtimes i cant even stand myself for being so slow...haha...maybe its because i am temporary wothout stress....well...maybe i just need some time for myself...to understand myself better...(thats the thing i have been wanting to do so)...so i am sorry if i kept you waiting...i am really sorry...i hope you will understand ok?and i just want to thank you for talking to me here and then...yup...you are great...haha...
anyway...i was reading and i came across this...:"those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life" and i find it quite true although i have not experience this before...and this story is about 2 seeds whereby one seed is so enthusiastic about growing up and one seed which is afraidto grow as it will damage its delicate sprouts...and so it decided to wait until it is safe...but not too long after...a chicken came and swallowed the seed up...yup...thats it...haha...and the seed who grew was safe and sound...
Rachael
