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Saturday, July 15, 2006
hihi....i haven been blogging for days...because sometimes i really dont know how to express myself in words...maybe just in words...i think i can express myself better in other things...such as conversations?music?i think so...haha...sometimes words are just so hard to express...haha...
anyway...i haven been quite busy this few days...timetable are quite packed...and i've heard that sa are coming up in 6 weeks time?oh i am not really sure....
a lot of things had happened in our class recently...firstly, alex and siti broke up...because of various reasons such as alex thought other guy likes siti...whatever...but i dont think thats the main reason...maybe i think that the love between them is just not strong enough to withstand problems...its too fragile...before they broke up they were so loving and after a while they broke up...i wondered whats love sometimes...i just asked alex a few days ago if he still have feelings for siti...he said just a little little bit...he had said that he loved her very much before...its too shocking to me i guessed...the feeling changed so much in such a short time...its like you said you like someone today and tomorrow...you decided not to like that someone anymore...is the love so worthless or you didnt mean it when you said it or you have said it too many times that you think that its nothing?haha...i am really confused...i have seen so many real life stories in my life about relationships...where it was so sweet and loving in the beginning and it turned really bad in the end...even me myself experienced it before...and that makes me petrified...i dont know what to do now except to retreat...haha...because all these things make me really no confident...haha...anyway i saw that someone again on friday...he was talking to fy and he saw me...but he didnt even say hi to him...oh ok i wasnt expecting much...but at least a smile to show that i am present there...and by the way i was just beside fy...he just treat me as a transparent...ok finally i know what kinda person are you and i will treat you as a transparent from now on...haha...joshua...in case you are reading this blog...i think you know who i am referring to right?haha...哈哈
Rachael
