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Friday, September 22, 2006
arghz...i've got lots of things to blog about actually...but when i clicked to this page...i just stared blankly at it...not knowing what to do...i am scared...everything is horrendous...can you imagine...everyone knows what you are thinking about?you just bink your eyes...and people will know whats up in you mind...oh gosh...that sounds so scary...
yup...my previous entries sounded kinda sad...because i was really hurt...its as though an unknown object just stabbed me from my back...and took away my everything...yeah...do you think i really let go?i cant tolerate things anymore...i cant stand it...i am still not ok not fine...not recovered...do you think i really let go?everything in your mind is them...yup them...sometimes i wondered if i should really hate you to the core...yes to the core...just dropped everything and move on?yeah right...you can...yes you can with all the support from your dearest beloved dears...but i cant...i am going to tell you straight in your face...I CANT!!!you think its easy for me?oh go ahead and think...just go ahead...you think its so hard on you...and easy for me?huh?oh gosh whats this?i am a mammal by the way...you know that kinda warm blooded mammal who has feelings?oh yes...hope you know...so now everything its my fault...its so hard on you...i lead an easy life yeah?thats what you think...you just dont know...start everything again next semester???ok let you think what you want...i am so HAPPY while you are sad and have a hard life...and i am living an easy life...just because someone was in front of me...ok?
Rachael
