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Saturday, November 25, 2006
long time no see...miss me?haha...hmm i haven been blogging for days because of my hectic schedule and my never ending tutorials,quizzes and reports...stupid stupid stupid...haha...i hate it!!!oh yup...next time i shouldnt study for cell biology anymore...perheps i should try another method...heh heh...i am just kidding anyway...ok dont bother about me...i am a bit blur right now because i just came home not long ago...i managed to survive from the super dried eyes i've got from the contact lens which i have been wearing for the past 12hours...haha...my vision was poor...i couldnt see my surroundings clearly....but nevertheless...i saw you...yes only you...haha...
anyway i am starting to hate my maths because it simply sucks...i dont know what is confidence level and etc etc...and my hpi, which is worse...oh gosh!!!help me!i am struggling like mad...its the same feeling...one minute i thought i was relaxing and floating on the surface of the sea, buliding sand castles in the air...and another mintue...some kinda force pulled me down agressively as if trying to drag me down to the seabed...i totally detest it when reality came slapping me hard on my face simply because reality hurts...ok i am a bit out of point for school work...but everything i wrote is related to school directly and indirectly...yup...
for me...i think that sometimes its better for me to remain as a small kid rather than to grow up...i hate the process whereby i have to try very hard to comprehend the sophisticated realtionship that takes place between human and human...i admit that i may be lagging behind in terms of this...but sometimes its clear to everyone that it wasnt my fault or anything else...hmm...our frienship is just too weak to withstand anything and everything...i can simply use rice paper to describe the friendship between you and me...just simply a drop or water or scrape to the rice paper...and the rice paper will be torn apart...its just too fragile...problems always arise between us...sometimes we chose not to understand each other so as to prevent a war from emerging..but i think its just too silly to do so...we prefer to hide and to maintain our friendship as if nothing has ever happen without realising that everything is just our own wishful thinking...everything is still hanging around in the air...we couldn see it because its transparent...but i can feel the presence...yup...to make things worse...you said its none of your business...thats the worse part of it, to say its none of your business to your friends...or at least to me...i think this is the last thing you should ever say to your friends...and i realised we have got nothing much to talk about nowadays...just 1 smile...2smiles..3smiles...thats what we do to each other everyday...or just crapping some kinda lame and unrealistic jokes to kill time...thats how far between you and me is going now...hopefully things will turn better...hmm its time for me to look on the bright side of life...
wish me good luck for my:
#lab report
#hpi lecture quiz
#water tech quiz
#maths quiz
#music listening journal
#music mix cd report
#hpi tutorial ws
#csas research...
sighs
Rachael
