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Friday, February 23, 2007
finally maths is over...hmmm i am so disappointed with my maths because i did not have enough time to finish my last question which was 2o marks?idiot!!!2 hours is really not enough for me to complete my paper...i wonder the how do the rest of them find it?
anyway i came here to blog for some resons...and the most significant reason is to kill boredom!!!hmmm...i noticed something today..and i can finally make my conclusion today after observing for weeks i think...seriously...i think i am drifting away from my friends...and the problem is that i dont really know the reason why...i was alone today after school after i bid goodbye to debbie and sy who were still in the school...i walked to the bus stop...hoping to find some familiar faces...but my vision was poor due to unknown reasons...and i was exhausted with the world spinning around me...i managed to reach the opposite bus stop and i stood there...moments later...my friends walked down the stairs..i have a strong urge to approach them but i didnt...i thought they saw me...but they just walked away...i really hope that its them who didnt noticed me and not that they just walked away...and so i went to the far end of the bus stop and sat there for quite sometime and in the meanwhile observing people who were smoking at the bus stop...i saw jia hui...but i was too far to reach out to her...all in my mind was the 20 marks which flew away...
i dont want say this but i realised that i have become so dependent on you...thats not a good sign...i am so used to having you around...your laughter...your smile...your vioce...your everything...
to my friends: it has been a long time since we talked...
Rachael
