estee anil and me



black pearl

do re mi

i am aware that life is full of ups and downs...but sometimes i really dreaded it...i have so much things inside my mind that i wish to talk about...but sometimes i just find it meaningless especially the endless arguement and quarrelling aftermath...thats why i chose to blog...but when i logged in into this empty page...nothing runs in my mind anymore...not as much as what i have been thinking before i saw this page...seriously...i detest it...i am not emoing or whatever...and anyway i hate that word EMO...frankly speaking...i felt really left out...i've got nothing much to talk to anymore...everything turned cold...i cant hold on anymore longer...i am really exhausted...i am helpless about it because i dont really know who to confide to...wheres my soulmate?




i am hurt...deeply hurt...i didnt feel likewise before in my life...i cant be a crybaby anymore...but sometimes tears just run down...trust me...i cried myself to sleep every night lately...it pains me to see myself like this...but i really cant help it....

it seeems you didnt want to care...

the one whom hurt me most...is the one whom i love most...

you are tired...so do i...but i did my very best...i put in effort...i put in all my heart...but i am dishearted now...

Rachael